received Love Essence Of Chicken from my asshole :)

he's got all the computer/online games ready and waiting for me already hoho!
went to played a few of them that day :X wth i simplyLOVE such games. i could still remember... how aaron would sit beside me to watch me play last time...

i cant wait for the arrival of next wednesday. :D

after that im gg for MY SAKURA BUFFET!!!!
i have been waiting for it so long...
mr rs's work during the weekends make it more difficult for us to go.

i have so much things to do after my As!

1) Dance lessons
2) Work ( a 5-days per week job and a part-timer in any childcare centre - this will be for the weekends perhaps )
3) Braces
4) Driving license
5) Volunteer work
6) Gatherings and more gatherings! :D
7) Hongkong trip with the girls
8) Cleaning up of house
9) SHOPPING
10) FOOD HUNTING
11) blablabla

and lastly,
the long awaited Christmas. :D
LOVE CHRISTMAS,
LOVE CELEBRATING WITH MIGHTY (the cheerleaders for oranjes) & ORANJES (the soccer team)
OHMAN OHMAN OHMAN.
i c a n t w a i t

keep off. Make way for the time-of-month

if only lol

if only i can turn back time, back to year 2004. i wont mind taking O lvl all over again.
for o lvl, a little more hardwork can make a difference.
for alvl, a little more hardwork will not make any difference.
Os is nth compared to As.

ohya. forgot to mention that the fucking prank caller strike again today.
he loves saturdays.
im gonna track him down and fucking make sure i feed his penis to dogs, stuff worms up his ass and shove large carrots up his nostrils. he is a fucking old man i believe.
mum says the root cause may be from the lost of my hp during sec sch times.
but it's impossible what. i would have saved both my house numbers. so why did he just call one and so coincidentally it's the one without caller ID. fucker man.
and he knows that i was schooling in xms. the first time he called in 2004, he said what im from xms one wad la blablabla.
but he always got my name wrong. he is always looking for ShuXiang.
like halo. my name is nice i dont need him to change it for me. haha (bitter laugh, can u taste it)

but after some time, i realised speaking to him in English intimidates him. wahahahhaa
the first time he called, i answered him in mandarin
then he went " bu yao pian wo la. ni shi na ge xinmin de dui ma. blablabla"

now? i ve learned.
all ive to do is sternly say "There is no such person in my house"
him : "orh solly"

from the "solly", i would say that he isnt good with english. and fyi, he is bad at chinese too.
i rmbered once he called blowjob as "Han Chu" like wth.

but it's nothing surprising since people like him communicate better with his dick than in language :)

i think im sick. i mean physically sick.
there's a monster hiding in my stomach. clawing and biting at my stomach wall(?) as and when it likes. it prefers me lying on bed to standing up. and i get all dizzy and my stomach hurts once i stand up. like wtf.
on and off stomach ache + 2 diarrhea + 1 vomit + on&off headache = sick
making me uncomfortable all over. i hate being sick!
and this is the first time ive ever had on and off stomach ache okay. dontknow wtf that monster is doing in me.

did a summary for the micro topics today. and yes i do see a clearer picture now. lol this should have been done, erm, before prelims?
ive slacked too much already. but no it's not the end of everything. :)
i will still try my best to at least pass my As.
this is a very low and not motivating aim. i know. but sometimes one just have to be realistic. hahah life is all about realism isnt it

anyway, daddy was asking me about what i want to take up as my career next time.
" i want to be teaching in the school of autistic kids "
the answer came so quickly that it got myself surprised too.

yes. i do think i have the patience for them. lol

having aaron in my life has further encouraged me to take up the challenge of teaching in the school.
i want to bring the necessary knowledge to them, i want to care for them, i want them to know that they are never left alone. i want to know them to know that there are people who care for them even though some have been real nasty to them.
i want them to be leading a life of a normal kid.
and i hope that all autistic children (in spore) will be given a chance to attend the school because aaron couldnt get in.. i dont know if is because his parents dont want to enroll him in or what la....
it's either the school fees are too expensive for them or that there is a limit to the students intake. im not really sure though.


when aaron and meimei came that day,
"meimei xiao xin!"
seeing how aaron had shown care for his sister by asking her to be careful because she had climbed up to a relatively high place, brought tears to my eyes. you would never know how happy i was...

you would never know
because you were never me.
because you never knew how i watch him grow,
play with him, love him.
this is what i call true love.
my love for him is on pile with my love for my family. he's really like a brother to me.
a brother i hold so dear.
my love for rs will definitely not exceed my love for him and my family. haha
second comes the love for friends.
love for rs is at the bottom. and he knows it too. :)

saying" i will not be blogging blablabla"
shall be my lie for the day.

the previous post was just another pms post. lol
but i felt really really bad that day okay. zzz

and GUESS WHAT AGAIN. hoho
him and her came my house ystd!
yes. aaron and meimei! their mum brought them over.. there goes my day for studying.. but BUT BUT, they brightened my day. :)
i have so much to say. but i guess im not gonna pen them down in words.
:D
pictures will do the saying.
but okay. they havent been uploaded. After my As then i'll get my picture-uploader to upload for me.
hmm picture-uploader? make your GUESS again.

mr rs, very good at turning things around to make me look at another happier side har.
but nvm. haha cos i like it.
i will be doing the plannin for his birthday this year..lol cos for the past 2 years unhappy events has shown its love the december period. and can u believe it.. i only celebrated 1 time of his bd with him.. which is that one time before we got together in year 2003. LOL
ops. lol i promise this year i will celebrate it with you and i will do the planning. lol :X
cant wait for ur bd to come!

one week to As.
motivation please please please come quick. i need you now.

i wont be blogging i guess until after As?
byebye blog
till then

everybody notices.. except you?

my friends cheered me on with encouraging words.
asking me to study hard.

i thought i can depend on you, the one and only you, for little encouragement too.
i guess i was wrong.

hahah. im sorry for having high expectations of you, my bf.

sorry. i dont know what im feelin now. all i know is i dont like such feeling.

you have your worries. other people have their worries too.
so why cant you do the same ?

as ive said earlier on. maybe its just me expecting too much from you. :)

:(